So me and my girlfriend broke up last month or so and i was heart broken after it. I was crushed. I mean I had been going out with her for 9 months which isn't the longest time but we but we had been through a lot and after nine months of having some where there for you all the time it is weird and lonely to not have here there for me any more. I dont really have any family in MD because they all moved down to NC so she was pretty much a lot of what i had up in MD. But any way i started to get over it I gave my number to a few girls and I was talking to them and to help me get my mind off my ex-girl friend I would go to the gym and leave my phone at home and just try to disconnect myself from her as much as possible. Sense I would go to the gym a lot I wouldn't be up late because I was tired.
But earlier this week she started texting me and calling me. But i didn't have my phone and when I did have my phone I would text her back but it would be like a one or two word text. Then she got mad at me because she thought I was blowing her off and sent me a long text saying she wanted to get back together but she didn't know if she did anymore because I was blowing her off she thought. Well when she sent me that text message about her wanting to get back together and her saying I pretty much ruined that because I wouldnt get back to her quick enough when I didnt have my phone.....all the old feelings that I thought I had gotten rid of came back and ever sense she sent me that message on Wednesday I have been trying to get back on her good side. So yesterday she needed me to do something for her and she made me cancel all my plans that I had with my friends. So I could do this favor for her and if I did this I could see her and we could talk about getting back together. So I do it and then I was suppose to see her last night but she was to tired and then I asked if I could see her tonight and she said that she no because she had plans. So I told her that all I do is want to see her and talk and she couldnt even do that for me. She said that she didnt want to see me. So I had my hopes up to see the girl that I love again and that we would get back together but thats not going to happen so it feels like we broke up all over again and it feels like im at when we first broke up. I feel heart broken and depressed. This just happened and im really in a bad place. I am half angry at myself for being played like I got played and Im really sad I can stop crying and being upset. Sorry if this doesnt make sense...I just had to get this out.